`Just do it. Jump and finish your suffering. Your beloved is dead, you are alone and
you have nothing to live for. There is no point in fighting` whispered Lucifer and
Ann Mary listened to him.
She closed her eyes and leaped down from the balcony
of her apartment. Every day million people commit suicide and yet Ann was
special. Special for Him. That`s why he personally took care about her falling.
God will be disappointed, because he loved this girl for her kind heart and strong
faith. He hurt his Father again, but he doesn`t feel satisfaction. He never feels it.
He wants to pain Him deeply, because he was hurt too. All he was dreaming about
was to be an equal, as close as possible to his Creator. He desired to share God`s
burden, to help Him, to make Him happy. He was a good sun and he deserved His
love and respect. But then Jesus appeared. He didn`t need to try gaining His love.
He didn`t need to be the best. He had everything without any efforts, while other
angels were working hard to catch His eye at least for one second. That`s why
Lucifer conceived a hatred for Him. He was better, worthier; he lived only to serve
his Father. There was nothing that he would not have done for Him.
Every minute became a painful torture. God was consulting only with Joshua,
initiating him into His secret plans. He didn`t notice his loyal angels, neglecting
them. He stopped talking and sharing with Lucifer His thoughts and dreams.
Father simply replaced him as if he was an inanimate thing. But in fact he was
feeling: pain, despair, resentment, envy, jealously. He was burning in those
emotions.
Nevertheless, he was far away from giving up. Lucifer thought that he would prove
his value by his diligence and would return God`s love.
And suddenly He convened all servants and declared that his sun is equal to Him,
has the same power and everybody must swear to him. In that moment the
realization hit Lucifer: God has never loved him. Never. He was pretending that he
cares for them, for him. This truth corroded his belly as the acid and he decided to
revolt and take revenge. If he had had the heart, it would have been broken. He
couldn`t make God love him, but he could easily cause His hate.
Later the Maker creates Adam and Lilith. `The shining one` wants to end his
existence, but he is immortal. He wants to ask God why he wasn`t enough for Him,
why he was never loved by Him? Doesn`t he merit this simple feeling? Is he worse
than this paltry wretched couple?
…Lucifer seduces the woman, and she leaves her husband. That`s how he shows
God that He made the wrong choice – people won`t love Him like he loved, they
won`t obey Him like he did – without any questions and doubts. His love was deep
as oceans, but now his rage is much deeper. Father will pay by tears and blood for
everything he has done to him or for everything that he failed to do. He was the
most beautiful angel and became the most awful. For what have he been punished
so cruelly? He would rather be killed than banished from Him. His spite became
stronger and stronger. He forgot who he was. To relive his own pain, he wanted to
flood the world into it. If he suffers, others must suffer as well.
…The he seduces quiet and submissive Eve. He was going crazy, because he
couldn`t understand why God cares so much about Adam. The Maker gives him
whatever he asks, He fulfils all his needs, before human even thinks about them
and yet He rejected his pure feelings! So, when Eve tears off forbidden fruit
Lucifer is happy and joyful, because he knows how Father is disillusioned.
`You should have loved me, not them, because I would have never let you down` -
thinks demon watching as angels ousted Adam and Eve from Paradise. He clearly
realizes that making evil is the only way for him to distract himself from ache. This
is the point when he becomes Devil and burns all bridges behind. After all he has
done he can`t come back and he doesn`t want it. Mischief captured him, forced out
his light. Lucifer creates Hell, where he tortures sinners, enjoying their sorrows. He
knows how Father grieves about every lost soul.
… He holds Ann Mary`s warm soul with his cold hands. She was a good person,
but because of her suicide she will burn for good.
`Give it to me, Master: I will take care about her punishment. ` - Beelzebub, his
right hand in hell, appeared insensibly on the small balcony.
But Lucifer hesitates. This soul is so gorgeous and innocent, that it should console
God in Paradise. Nobody can resist the Devil, but this girl merits to be given
second chance. A chance that he didn`t get, but needed so desperately.
`No, don`t touch it. The girl belongs to Heaven. ` - he closes his eyes appealing
Ann`s guardian angel. He is not one from them any more, however he kept some
angel`s capabilities.
After few seconds confused and miserable angel, who looked like a boy about
twenty, showed up before demons. He was crying, because he couldn`t avert the
tragedy, and Ann Mary would never find peace.
`Today you are lucky, buddy: I will return you the girl; she is too pretty for hell.
Say `Hello` to Daddy and tell that I miss Him. ` - with that Lucifer passed the
shining and pulsing soul.
`Is that a trap? ` - asked angel fishily, taking the gift anyway.
`Were it a trap you would have been dead by now. Run away until I change my
mind`
The guardian doesn`t need to be told twice: he disappeared with precious burden.
Two devils stayed alone, and one of them was very angry.
`What was that?! Did you just set free this soul? She belongs to us! You are devil,
you shouldn`t show mercy! `
`I am who I am, if you don`t like me, you are free to choose other king of Hell, I
won`t mind`.
`You know that`s not what I meant. We are worried about you, you are acting
weird. You really miss Him, don`t you? `
`I hate him and I will destroy everything that he loves, piece by piece, slowly, but
confidently and then I will show no mercy! We lost Ann Mary and what? People
are bogged down in vises, they don`t pray, don`t believe, don`t hope. We are
winning the war! We don`t have place in hell for all those sinners! Sooner or later I
will crush Him`
`When you are talking like this, I recognize my wicked Master` - Beelzebub smiles
obsequiously, thinking that if Lucifer don`t destroy God he would destroy him.
They don`t choose new king of Hell, they bring down the previous.
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