She stood near the river and looked off into the distance.
Water flowed keeping time with bird`s tweets. And sun shined so brightly. In movies miracles happened with such background.
But that wasn`t a movie for her. She saw nothing, she heard nothing. Only exhausting emptiness filled up her mind, only the beats her heart that was so loud. Tap, tap, tap. Wait.
One more step and she would cut way back. One more step and she would solve all her problems. One more step and she would leave this world.
-Well, I will do this step - her euphonious, but confident voice broke the inner silence. - But I should take care about my little ones. Lucia, John and Katy, ohh, actually they suffered a lot. - And added with a weary tremble in her voice. - It is so p...It is so pity that my children ensure that I am an awful mother on their own experience. It is so pity.
She reached mobile phone and started to wrote the message to James. James was her friend from the college. Even when both of them raised their families pals kept in touch and supported each other.
The phone was out of juice and made annoying sound and long nails scratched on the screen. She through the tears whispered text that was written.
-Jammie, you know that we have a divorce with the Edd. Also you remember that I am an emigrant, I will not take it to court. Edd get us out off the house.
She remembered that day clearly. She and 3 kids, their with Edd kids. As far as she knew he get them for this singer from the restaurant. On singer`s visit card it is written that she sings like an angel, ha. She kept in mind cries and howling of babies. Also she thought about his screaming. And finally she remembered her mumbling and groaning.
New sentences appeared on the screen:
-I was gripping the ground, I asked him, I blessed him. While I had some money on my credit card we lived in an old hotel, we ate from dustbins. Also I worked as a charwoman, hairdresser and even electrical engineer. Finally, I am out of money now, children whine and whimper every time. I am out of strange. Do you hear me? I GIVE UP. I lose my confident. That is the end. Please take care about Lucia, John and Katy. Good bye. This is my last minutes of the life. Mother of 3 kids drown her sorrows in the river will be written at newspapers. I will find the peace there.
She exhaled and pressed the button SUBMIT. A cheerful tune notified that message to James Johns had delivered.
-That is time... - she thought. Beats of her hurt was brassy. Breathe in. Breathe out. Her leg scratched on the ground in the direction to the river and ...
-Stop! - she thought. Her leg returned to the ground with a heavy crunch. - The last name of James is Johnson. So who did receive my message?
James Johns was the street cleaner in her garden. He had done his work perfectly. And also was very polite and kind. Also he sang as a Louis Armstrong, his timbre was pure and raucous.
Once again she reached the phone. Once again she started to scratch the message. The phone was out of batteries and that irritated her.
-James, I mixed up numbers. It is a simple mistake. Have a nice day.
But she didn`t send the text. A cheerful tune notified that message from James Johns had delivered.
-Hunny, in the moments of dispair people close their hearts to the world. They are escaping like a contempible cowards. At the result they stay alone. You are lonely now. Please, close your eyes and ears, and then open. What do you see? What do you hear? What do you feel? Blue water, bird`s song and the wind breeze are presents for you from the world. It is amazing. I will ask you to find a small stone and throw it into the river. You are not a stone. You shouldn`t be in a river, you should show your kids the beauty of the world. And finally clap your hand. One more time and one more time. And do it faster. It is a storm of applause for you.
She did those stupid gymnastics. And she recall a day when Lucia return from the musician school. She organized a small concert for her mother. John was a dancer there and Katy as a newborn only slept, but her snoring was a big part of the concert. She was so happy to be with these small talents in such grateful moment.
-My address is ***. - the message continued - I have one room for your family. You will like a great view. Moreover, you shouldn`t pay. I am preparing tea and cakes with oranges. And like a Lous sang: " Summertime, and the livin' is easy" One more thing ... come as fast as you can. Cakes are so delicious when they hot.
Window. View. Room. Cakes. Summertime.
Breathe in.
Breathe out. Calm.
-I am foolish coward. He is right. All problems have their solution and cakes, mmm. But how does he know my favorite song?
-James, you are like a sunshine in my life. I will take a jam for the cakes. - she wrote quickly, until her phone didn`t die.
She stood near the river and looked off into the distance. Water flowed keeping time with bird`s tweets. And sun shined so brightly.
She song in consonance with a river "Fish are jumping and the cotton is high. So hush little baby. Don`t you cry".
In movies miracles happened with such background.
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