Maybe it was due to my age, but I have never felt such... negative emotions. I even didn’t know how to call it properly because I couldn’t understand their nature. It seemed like everybody in class decided I’m a freak after one strange accident. They stared at me with disgust and fear, trying to sit as far as possible and avoid physical contact with my stuff as if it was infectious. Then teacher came in and, acknowledging my presence, made the face of a person who just ate a lemon. Suddenly, I became sort of “something that attends classes” and not the part of society, I became “that strange girl”, who can make people see things. However, I even wasn’t sure it was me who did it... I was also a victim of these group illusions, but nobody would believe me. The moment I thought about it, this horrible and painful rock inside my chest became heavier than before. It felt like there is a “path full of rocks” from my throat to stomach, and the biggest piece of it was in my chest. A teacher looked around the class, and stopped at my row, in which the only seat was taken – mine. Children didn’t want to seat near me. I hoped she will say something like – “Hey, class, why are you all on the one side? Come on, take seats in the right row, there are many!” Nevertheless, she didn’t. She pretended as if she didn’t see anything strange in this and started a lesson. She was talking only to the left side of the class, ignoring my hand, raised to answer and me. After another try I got up from my seat.
- Can I ask you a question? – I said, feeling that my rocks can jump out of my mouth any second. Teacher turned around with a familiar expression of lemon-eating. Suddenly, the rocks exploded and I burst into tears, making all class to freak out and run from the room. I didn’t know what was happening and couldn’t understand why they suddenly stopped excepting me. These kids were my friends, this teacher praised me and was kind to me. I was normal for them until yesterday’s event. Why did it change so quickly?
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