The Lie

By O.K.

No, I can’t believe. The darkness in my head turns me off from this cruel reality. You’ve never wanted to be my friend. Oh, dear, tears and tears. They are my only true friends. I’m feeling a little fevered. Little ugly spiders crawl on my head and larvae in my mouth. No, no, no… I’m trying to find, your warm hand but the only thing I can see is Darkness. No, you’ve gone. I lean on the cold and wet wall. Lie. You’ve been always lying to me. All that I have is on the floor, it’s broken. It feels like my own blood there. My hand scrambles down slowly along the wall. Yes, I scratch my hands by rigid stones inside the wall. No, you just don’t deserve me. You’ve always been so self-confidence to me. But I want to see your cruel face again. That’s horrible feeling when you’ve broken the black piano of our feelings. I can’t believe in this fairy tale anymore. 

I fall down on the floor full of my blood. You’ve gone, baby. You left me in this blood. What should I do? I’m just crazy for you. Revenge? No, I’m feeling a bit nervous. Tears begin to fall down on the floor. There is nothing to save in this dark room. Yes, you killed me by words and behaviour. You closed doors and even didn’t look at me for the last time. You’re so raw! You are terribly cruel! What for? Boy, what for do you do this? Don’t you know you’re killing me? You’re killing me so slowly, so far in time. 

I gave you everything I had. But did I right? But you even didn’t mind it. You’re not a fool. So take it all with my life. Such a strong feeling of unhappiness moves swiftly along my body. Everything I did was for you. But now… You pretend to be nothing to me - just one more stranger somewhere on the street. I am lonely as always. I am lonely as everyone. You’ve never tried to be someone for me.

A strange smack of bitterness is in my mouth. Can someone turn the light on? No one can, except me. Well, I’m trying to stand up. But the red and desperate blood is on my ex-blue dress sticks to my silly thought. Will it be better if I turn the light on? You won’t come back. If you do you’ll try to kill me again and again. I wish nothing but the best for you. But do you do the same for me? Exhalation. Some little beetles roll down from me. I remember you so clear. Whenever I was alone with you… Yes, you made me so happy. I’d never thought you would try to destroy me. Is this necessary? My legs are getting colder and colder. I hasn’t even a choice. Why did you do this to me? Why?After several minutes I finally stand up. I don’t see anything. Only darkness. Bring everything to fire! It is my first aim. I will not stop until I save me. I’m so weak, just a human creature. You’ve never cared about me. Wow! What was the sound? Am I not alone? Who’s here? I’m looking in the dusk more attentively. Then I hear something near my neck! It was breath. I scream and fall down again into the floor full of red substance. I’m feeling like I’ve break my left hand. Oh, who’s here? I can see just nothing. Where are you? Is this You? Don’t you remember the reason you went to me once? No, I feel spiders are running out of my head. They don’t need you anymore. I understand I have no strength to run from this stranger in the room. You’ve done it, babe. Than someone’s chilling hand takes my neck and …. Laugh!

I thought you love me more than this.

(Here you can find some phrases here from songs by Adele).