Rich Girl.
26.03
Dear diary. My life was heavy and complicated.
I want to tell my story to someone who wouldn’t tell it to anyone else. So I’ve decided to write my diary. First, I want to tell you my story before this day.
My name is Idzenemi, which is translated as woman who invites. My parents decided that this name was best for me. And now I’m beginning to agree with them, because my life forced me to change my character, my everyday life and preferences.
Let me explain my words. I was raised in a happy family. My father – Hiroshi – is a good person. It’s funny because his name represents him very well! Hiroshi means wide or large and he is a large person. My mother – Yasuko – is a good Japanese woman, who respects traditions and moral. She brought me up with love and care. I know that they wanted for me happy future. But life goes its way and for person it is very hard to change something. My parents are rich, so I had everything what I wanted. I have to admit that I wasn’t very capricious in childhood. I preferred to stay home and read books, training at Japanese calligraphy and learn how to dance.
27.03.
My parents could afford to create my happy future. I’ve attended one of the best private schools in Japan. Thanks to my passion for books and knowledge I learned very good and passed exams for a highest score. I managed to enter the medical university. My mother advised me to choose exactly this university, because medicine is profitable sphere where I can develop myself. And I agreed. In
university I’ve met my best friend Asa. She wanted to become a pediatrician and I – the neurologist. We had so much in common: the same food taste, books and movies preferences. We even attracted the same males. However we promised to one another that we won’t struggle and quarrel about boyfriends. So our friendship was strong enough. In one year I’ve met my first true love. And I’ve got crazy. Obviously I’ve dated some couple of times, but I’ve never experienced this feeling. Yes, I was in love with him – Kadzuya. We spend so much time together and we were happy!
But. There is always “but”. But one day I discovered that my father owed money to local Jakudza boss. His name is – Matsumoto. My father was trying to find the exact sum of money, but he didn’t manage it. Matsumoto with his five boys and took me from my family away. My mother was crying, my father couldn’t watch all this, so just went away in the kitchen.
I was desperate! Why? Why did they do this? Matsumoto said that he proposed to my father a deal: he finds money or I become Matsumoto’s wife.
28.03.
I was shocked. I couldn’t speak. I just stand there and couldn’t thought or seen anything. I was guided to my room and left alone. Although I knew that one of Matsumoto’s boys is standing behind the door. I hated him. I hated everyone in this shity whole! I propped the door up and lay on bed. I was crying the whole night long. I was thinking about my family, Asa and more important about Kadzuya. Oh, my darling! “He might doesn’t know anything” – thought I.
On the next morning nobody came. Only in three days I was guided to Matsumoto. He said that he gave me some time to think and want to know now, if I will stay with him. I couldn’t think. My eyes were full of tears. I said: “No! I will go to my family and boyfriend. And you leave me alone!”
This was biggest mistake in my life. Matsumoto didn’t shout, didn’t hit me. He didn’t do anything. He just took me and few of his bubs and set in a car. In 15 minutes we were at Kadzyas home. I couldn’t believe. How? How did he know?
We went into the small house, where Kadzuya had dinner with his family. And then… I couldn’t remember everything in details. I remember I was screaming, biting one of Matsumoto’s boys. But I remember the most important thing – how Matsumoto killed Kadzuya and his family. Then he turned to me and said: “Now say me who will be next? Asa? Hiroshi and Yasuko?”. I was crying.
29.03.
He just pulled the triger four times. First shot – grandmother. Second shot – father. Third shot – mother. And then – Kadzuya. The last shot. It was a nightmare. No, it was worse than nightmare, because it happened in reality.
Maybe I’ve lost consciousness, because I don’t remember how I was brought to Matsumoto’s home. I’ve het one important lesson after this. And I grasped it for my whole life. In a week I come to Matsumoto and said that I’ll be gentle, honest and loyal. In two days we got married. I lost my virginity with Matsumoto while I couldn’t stop thinking of Kadzuya. Since then 10 years passed. Matsumoto became the main boss of Jakudza in Japan. And I became the main boss’s wife. We have two kids – Kadzuya and Uruka. Matsumoto everyday say how he loves me and happy that I’ve decided to stay with him. He always repeat that my beauty gave him strength to fight for me and achieve success. I’m happy, maybe. In any case I have no complaints. I use all privileges of my position. I don’t want anything more. I’ve became real Idzenemi - woman who invites. I’m the host in this house and the second person after Matsumoto. I was raised up in a rich family and now I have even more money. But I think that if I would be born in poor family, Matsumoto wouldn’t know about me and my beauty. So maybe all of those horrible things wouldn’t happen?
Poor girl.
26.03.
Father always told me that I should write a diary, but I’ve never had enough time for it. Now I have it enough, so want to write my life story down in case if somebody will need it. My name is Idzenemi. I was born in a poor family. My mother Yatsuko wasn’t satisfied with the fact that I’ve came to this world. I’ve always thought that she hated me since my very first day. “Why?” you may ask. Because I needed food, space to live and care. They with father were broke, so extra stomach was unwanted. But my father Hiroshi loved me. He was so happy that I was born that my hated him also. From the early childhood I must have helped my parents. I’ve worked hard, in order to help my family. When you were born in poor family you have to grow up faster. I helped my father to wave baskets and sell them. And I helped my mother to cook and clean in our and other houses.
When I was 6 years old I went to school. But local school was bad and for good school my family hasn’t got enough money. So in two months I stopped visiting school. Nevertheless I grew up well-educated, because my father was very smart. When we were waving baskets he always thought me something, for example math, geography, literature and even biology. Despite my mother I had happy childhood. Until day X.
27.03.
I remember everything very clear. I was eleven years old and was drawing at the table. My mother was cooking a dinner and father resting on the couch. It seems idyllically, doesn’t it? But then came they. Boys from Matsumoto’s gang burst in our house. They were drunk and in good mood. That was bad sign. My father tried to stop them and asked them to leave. But one of boys had a knife and he
hit my father in stomach. One, two, three, four, five times. My mother was scared. She told me to
hide, and I ran in the bedroom. I’ve hide in closet and only heard my other screaming and begging. Although I wanted to scream and cry, I held still and quiet. Only tears were streaming down my face. In 15 minutes of hell I’ve heard sound of a car. And then it was quiet. No laughing, no screaming, nothing.
A man came to the bedroom. He looked under the bed, checked the bathroom and opened closet. It was Matsumoto himself. Everybody in district has known him, because he was head of local Jakudza gang.
28.03.
Since that day I lived in Matsumoto’s house. It was huge. I was one of maids till I got 13. Then I’ve had also some add tasks. I’ve lost my virginity very early. As I said, when you are born in poor family you have to grow up faster. I’ve never seen Matsumoto again after day X, but I’ve developed some other relations.
I understood that it is no point in crying and begging. If I want to change something, I must change it. So I swallowed my pride and dignity and begun my way to the top. Very soon with hard work and loyal behavior I became one of the best maids who serve for important people, including all Jakudza chiefs. I realized that if every man wants me, than I have weapon against them. For the start it was great. One by one I’ve cast a spell on them and they were ready to give me everything what I
wanted. And I wanted only a few things.
29.03.
Faces of three men, who killed my parents I’ve remembered for the rest of my life. One by one I’ve prepared for them “accidents”. It took by me two years. The first one was poisoned. That was too easy. The second one died in car accident when brakes of his car didn’t work out. The most complicated was with third one. He appeared not so often in Matsumoto’s house. So I’ve decided to kill him at each opportunity even if I’ll be revealed. But the destiny gave me better chance. I saw him standing on balcony, so I just pushed him from the high right into the sea. His body was found but no one could say if it was murder or suicide.
The first part of my revenge was done.
The next part was very delicate. So I acted very carefully in order not to ruin everything. First I needed to win over Jakudzas chiefs. Only two of seven were alert about me. I needed to have support from all of them. I’ve played a dangerous game and even one mistake could cost me life. I discovered that in a month will be meeting of Jakudzas heads. It was the best chance for me. There were only two ways: I will become the main head of Jakudza or I’ll die.The main difficulty in my plan was that in history of Jakudza wasn’t any chief woman. Even at local gangs. But I want to end with this patriarchy. That’s why I wanted to go in va-bank (all in) – everything or nothing. These men won’t let me to rule local gang. In some time they would assassinate me. But they won’t dare assassinate the main chief, because traditions don’t allow do that.
They only way I could gain respect, power, and force is the way of blood. I managed to get permission to serve this meeting. I prepared to this moment and planed everything. Meeting was going good. They discussed influence topics and then decided to choose new main head of Jakudza. Everybody knew that it will be Matsumoto - one the smartest and bravest of them all.
When this time come and he was chosen, I killed him.
I came and jugulated him. The blood was everywhere. Two other chiefs who didn’t like me killed my loyal lovers. And so I’ve became Idzenemi – the first woman main head of Jakudza. The next my move was to get a tattoo as a sign of my actions, power, and status. It covered all my body. Boys of Matsumoto became my boys. And I had nets all over Japan. I became queen of Jakudza!
30.03.
I’ve walked slippery slope but it was worth it. The main mistake of Matsumoto was to save my life. No one would forgive anybody killing of parents. My life thought me to be strong and patient. My family doesn’t respected traditions so strongly. But living by Matsumoto’s house thought me that everyone should adhere it.My life was heavy and sad. But now I have power and this is the most important thing.
Sometimes I thought about what would happen if I was born in a rich family. But I don’t think about it anymore. Because despite all tragedies in my life I’ve became a person whom I always wanted to be. No one can take it from me now.
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