We got acquainted many years ago.
She often came to our yard when we were children and walked with our company. I don’t even remember how we meet; she just appeared in my life. They were friends with a girl, which I have been in love since childhood and who never paid attention to me. The girls, who are friends, always walk in groups and also these two were always together. We often saw each other a few years and my opinion is sharply switched to from her best friend to her. Perhaps I was still searching for mutual love. We were 15 years old. She was always very noisy, always in the spotlight. But her noise has never annoyed me. Actually, it’s still not annoyed. She is beautiful, not as the famous actress or model, but somehow in special way, like a character of old unknown tale. But hadn’t known her I would come up to meet her, even just on the street. She is also smart. You know, not every guy wants to be in a relationship with the smart one. The majority wants to dominate, and dominate someone with her own head on her shoulders is not easy, especially in view of portion of the complex inflammatory and ambitions. But this combination impressed me. As challenge when you get incredible prize - some candy as in primary school. She has a little bit too much ambition, in my opinion, but I agree to accept it. In short, I loved her. Am I still in love? Yes. I hope would not love, but... This is a terrible feeling actually tearing inside.
It happened suddenly to me. At that time we were together almost six years and I do not really know what could have happened. We celebrated the New 2016 Year separately - she had traveled with friends to the mountains. I stayed at home and waited for her return. Obviously the trip was success, because she came back, and decided to have a difficult talk. In short – she said that tired of me and fell in love with one other. I was impressed with the largest depth. Shock led to the fact that I just do not believe it. I did not believe at least for week, but as soon as I realized this horrible realization that we are no longer together, and I have absolutely nothing to fill the emptiness of my life, because she took it almost completely. In general, we haven’t stopped to meet as no longer a couple. Anyway daily phone calls to each other. Moreover a month every day we were exhausted long talk about relationships and about how to get out of this stupid situation, when this love, it seems no longer love, but nonetheless we couldn’t let go each other. I am not able to let her go. Not to say that he decided to return it because it sounds completely ridiculous. But we talked by inertia. I played the inertia of her requests and met her when she returned home late. By inertia made jealous of her friends from the university. She by inertia phoned me every night and asked how my younger sister is. By inertia was foot walking with me and telling jokes.
The inertia lasted about two months. All this time we haven’t quarreled. I was surprised how everything in our relationship was good with the elimination of the formal status of the couple. Not to say that I hated her less than a day when she said that we are breaking off. This is something completely different. She seems just wanted freedom, which she has already managed to breathe. She phoned more often and treated me even kinder. Most smiled. I generally thought that we become much happy. The last time when we were walking back, I looked at her as if we were 15 years old. She was really good-looking, attractive. I really love her. I said nothing, and she took my hand when we skipped the nearest subway station to go home. I don’t know whether we would ever be together, or not. And no matter how we called it, something between us is still there. And this is
something alive and not going to die.
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