Now that I cannot turn the time back and undo it, I have to deal with it, right? There’s no place for fear in my head, only rational, calm thoughts. Do I love her? Yes. Have I thought about marrying her one day in a very distant future? Yes… Then, it would happen one day anyway... Plus, now they won’t take me to the army, if I marry her.
But I am just 20!.. How am I going to handle this? I don’t have a stable source of income, I still live with my parents. I am not an adult yet, how am I going to be a parent? And what if she is not a person I want to spend all my life with? Okay, calm down. Stop acting like a girl and relax. At least, you don’t have to give birth to that child.
I am pregnant
What the hell? Sorry, someone, that grows inside of me, but I didn’t intend to make you happen. Why now? And why him? The moment I decided to leave him, this happens? I thought we weren’t right for each other but it wasn’t the time to break up. He has exams, I have exams… And now this? I don’t want to get an abortion – if I do so, there’s a possibility I won’t be able to have kids in the future. But, I don’t want to spend my life with Dan, and I don’t want my child to grow up without a dad... What am I going to do now?..
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