Yellow by A.

“Hi, I’m sorry for breaking our agreement

and potentially ruining your weekend. It’s just that even the day right after we made it, I already couldn’t understand the point of it. As you can guess, I don’t have a critical reason to write to you. The only thing is, I forgot to ask you last time if you remember to take your allergy pills. The ones you take every other Saturday. But that’s not an important enough reason to bother you. So, I’m sorry. I wanted to write a week ago, but I thought I would definitely cause you trouble back then, so I decided to write this weekend instead.

I don’t know what I’m allowed to ask you, so it’s very hard to come up with other conversation topics, because my mind is mostly filled with questions about how you’re doing and how your mood is. Besides, I realize I’m delaying you from re-reading the book series, so sometimes I get the urge to return the books even before winter, and maybe give you some treats to make your evenings nicer. I know you have a busy schedule, so I could meet you after classes just to hand everything over. During those 5 minutes (or less if you prefer, or a maximum of 20 minutes if you want more) while we walk toward your bus stop, I’d mostly be quiet, because right now the thought of this idea brings me both joy and fear. But if you don’t want to, or if it ruins your plans/day, just ignore this offer. Also, I wanted to tell you that I found a shorter route to the subway, and now the walk there takes about 15 minutes.

I should probably stop writing this message; I really don't want even just reading it to exhaust you. I'm sorry if what I wrote ruined your mood. It would probably be better to talk about how things are going in person rather than over text, because messages take up a lot of time. So, if you don't want to meet up, I'll ask again when you have the time and the desire. I’ve been hesitating for a long time whether to send this or not; if you’re reading this, it means I decided to hit send``.

The tension swelled in his chest. He looked at phone and hit ``send`` but still wasn’t sure it is right decision to make. He swallowed. Among webs of thoughts where every tried to say that everything is alright only one shined with yellow. She didn’t want to and you knew but it didn’t stop you.