It was a shock. A scandal. An exposure. Two boys with good reputation were caught kissing in the yard side of the catholic school for boys. John was red as tomato, he wasn`t looking at Mr. Graham who was paralyzed by seen.
`Guys, w-what are you doing? `
`Don`t you see? ` - answered I, lazily drawling words, `we are kissing`.
`This is strongly forbidden! Follow me to the director, we need to investigate this case and inform your parents. It all started a year ago, when John came to our school. I always knew that I liked
boys more than girls. My parents sent me here to guard me from cruel wanton world. I was studying at school full of boys, but I wasn`t stupid, I impersonated. I knew a boy who secretly told his friends that he is a gay and next morning the security guard found him beaten almost to the death. I didn`t want to end like him. When we were going to the main building where on the 3-d floor was the director’s cabinet my friend Tom stopped us:
`Is everything alright, Jimmy? `
Tom was the one who broken two ribs of that poor boy, but I was the one who hit him first. I was protected myself from any suspicious that might appear in my friends minds. Nevertheless I must be careful with Tom, he is not clever, but he is sly and low.
`Nothing serious. We were missing Latin lessons and Terk wants to hear how good we know Titian and Cicero`
`Then you have problems. Barbarians speak Latin better than you` - Tom went to continue playing football with boys.
John still didn`t say a word. He was scared and perplexed. Taking risk I took his hand, but he tried to break her free.
`Don`t worry, I`ll fix this. Mr. Terk will do nothing to us. `
`No, we will be excluded and my parents will kill me! `
Angry Mr. Graham told us to keep going. John was his favorite pupil, so his disappointment was huge. We entered in big spacious room, where all free place were occupied by books, written on religious topic. The director, Mr. Terk, liked to read books about Christianity, but I thought that after his wife tragically died he became an atheist. Now he was reading `City of God`. Poor men, he was losing his faith.
`What happened? – He asked discontentedly
`Mr. Terk I caught those boys kissing. I think they are dating`
`Is that so? ` - Mr. Terk closed the book, paying all attention to us.
`No` - answered John
`Yes` - answered I
`I see` - he said pensively, turning pale. `Mr. Graham, you can go – you have already performed your obligation. And don`t tell anybody about this.
- Mr. Graham would better watch how Terk will crush us and expel, but he didn`t dare to object.
Then the director addressed himself to my boyfriend.
`John, you need to calm down. Go to the dining room and drink tea with mint. I will talk with James alone`
John looked at me and I nodded. He was almost crying and I felt the need to encourage him. But Terk looked at me, silently warning and I obeyed.
When he left Terk ordered me to tell everything and I told him the truth. I was the initiator of these relations, because John was not sure if he is a gay. Actually he had a girlfriend in the past and I was his first boy.
We were together for seven month, but John still had doubts. I was patiently waiting for him to gain the understanding of himself. I wasn`t happy about that, but I promised to myself that I will not push on him. We were planning to leave together after finishing school. One month left before the graduation and freedom.
`So, James you know our rules. This is a catholic school. I have no choice but to expel you both`
`Well, I learned our rules by heart and I`m pretty sure there is no paragraph which allows the director of the catholic school to have an intrigue with a mother of one of the pupil – a married and respected
women. `
I expected Mr. Terk to be punch-drunk, but suddenly he appeared … contended by what I said.
`How did you find out about us? I was very cautious. `
`You may think that this is your school but I organized a network of spies who inform me about very little detail that happens here. We know everything. Expel me and I will start talking. `
Mr. Terk was smiling, but I wanted him to be afraid, to beg me to keep his secret, which may cost him his career. Deep inside I understand that he is not from such people – he will never abase himself.
`You are very talented boy, Jimmy. If you choose path of virtue you will have great future. Don`t fall for temptation`
`Are we forgiven, director? ` - I was impatient, because I was worried about John. I need to tell him that we are safe and we will stay at school.
`You will be punished – 3 hours after lessons every day (even on weekends) you will help to clean school and to wash dirty crockery in the dining room. And you will not date with John until finishing
school. I don’t need to mention what will happen with you if somebody like your friend Tom wills exposure you. You can wait, because only one month left`
`Yes, next month I will tear off my relations with Catholicism. I`m a gay and I`m not ashamed because of that. `
`We`ll talk about it later, James. This topic is complicated. Go back to your… friend and appease him`
I left decided that I would not talk with him about that. What I feel is not unnaturally and I`m not going to reject myself. I found John in his room lying on the bed.
`Should I gather my belongings? `
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