An Accident by Sasha Korniichuk

First, there was a loud sound of
the inhabitable wheels. Then the bright light died up. And I felt a strong blow. Something seemed to take me out of the way, I’ m not sure. Oh, my head... it’s splitting. And this unpleasant squeak in my ears is driving me crazy. Stop, why I don’t feel my legs? Why I can’t move my arms? There is no power to scream at all, as if my voice was gone. Just now I realize that my eyes are closed. Everything flashes in different colors, but the picture is kind of blurred, blurred. Couldn’t I get into car crash? No, exactly no. I was keeping close look at the road all the time. But... what happened then? Could I?.. No, no, everything is okay, John, don’t panic. Maybe, it’s just a dream and I’m sleeping. Wait, I start to hear something. Is it a... siren? Come on, why can't I move anything? I can't even see anything, there are only glares around. It seems to me or do I really hear the voice of a person?
“An accident... the van hit... a man broke through the windshield and flew out onto the road... critical state... lost a lot of blood... pulse is very weak... we can lose him... quickly to the hospital”
Omg, please, no, it's not happening to me. It can’t be real. Am I... dying? But what... I’m only 25 y.o., I married Yen and... We just bought a new flat for our future family. We’ll soon have a babe. How will she live and bring up a child alone? What is about our holidays in Latvia? Yen has been dreaming about it all her life. And my parents… How will my parents live after it? Losing your son is worse ... worse than own death. I haven’t spoken to my parents for several months already; I have been delaying everything, saying that there are a lot of thing to do. I`m so sorry. I did want to do that. This stupid routine, which took so many outstanding cases from me, I did not have much time to do. I just didn’t have time. It can’t be true. I want to live! I have to say my parents and Yen how I love then very much. I have no right to die.
“The situation is becoming worse… very hard breathing… already found three open fracture… too much blood… we may not be in time.”
I feel my mind waning; how long have I been lying: 10 minutes, an hour or a year already? I`m like here and somewhere far away in my mind at the same time. It's warm and nice here. I hear something… is it my mother?
“My babe, you will grow up and became my superhero. I will always love you, my sweetie.”

“Who is my hero, John? Who did water all the flowers in the garden?”
“That is me, mommy! I am a real superhero!”

“Mommy, daddy! I get excellent marks today! There are ‘5’ for Math, ‘5’for Arts and ‘5’ Reading. Our teacher gave me such a beautiful sticker with car! I will grow up and buy such a car for you.”

“Hey, guys! Don`t hurt her! Get away from her or I will beat you!”
“Thank you…”
“John, my name is John.”
“And I am Yen. Nice to meet, my superhero.”

I seem to be drifting, and the water is all accelerating and accelerating. how many thoughts and emotions I feel now. I forgot what I thought and what I felt in those moments. They are fantastic and warm.

“This costume suits you best. As white and clean as your smile, honey. After graduation dress it for your wedding”
“Moooom”
“Okay, sweetie, sorry. I just want you to be happy. You`re still my hero.”

“What university will you enroll in?”
“I thought to go to the capital…”
“But then you will be too far away from me!”
“As soon as I find an excellent job there, I will take you to my place, promise.”
“I should talk with my father.”
“Yen?”
“Yes?”
“I love you.”

“We don't have so much time! Our wedding is in 4 month. I need to choose a wedding dress.”
“It`s not so hard, Yen. Just choose a suitable one for my graduation costume.”
“Oh, John, you`re kidding me!”
“Maybe. Or maybe I love you so much.”

“Okay, right there… Be careful, this sofa is so expensive. Yes, just right there.”
“Oh, I`m so tired.”
“Me too, Yeny. But look at our new flat. It`s fabulous. There are three room: our bedroom, living room and one…”
“…For our baby.”
“Yen?”
“I`m pregnant.”
“I already love this baby.”
“You will be a great father, my superhero.”

I will, Yen, I will…