Darkest Fear by Anna Yeremchenko

It was evening.

It was a cold autumn evening when I was on my way to home after hard day. I always used to be an autumn lover, but in that time I was rather tired and cold, than inspired by melancholic atmosphere of this season. As usual, I was standing alone on the station, waiting for my train. There were a lot of people around me. Busy, in a harry, talking and talking and talking people, citizens of the super tired city, which never sleeps. I was thinking about daily routine: home tasks, diet, plans for tomorrow, death, and how wonderful it could be if I got a pen which can write with all colors.
Thoughts were grudgingly moving in my had. Those thoughts were harmless in the beginning, but I didn’t notice how they pushed that ball inside me. Something bad, hard and painful. Big metal ball started slowly rolling down, from the top of my head right to the heart in the chest. With each turnaround of that ball my fear was increasing. I felt that my heart begun beating faster. Boom. Boom. Boom. They are here. Again. My old “friends”. 
The train has arrived but I didn’t even make a move to get on. I couldn’t make a step because all my body, my mind and my soul were bound by frightening panic. A terrible whisper was heard in my ears. Voices weren’t courteous with me, they were muttering something unpleasant, evil. I felt that warm tears started flowing down my cheeks. I noticed my body was shaking. Some man on the station looked at me with bewilderment. Maybe he could see that screaming panic in my eyes. “YOU THE WORST” Whisperings turned into scream. “THEY HATE YOU. WHY ARE YOU SO DISGUSTING?”
Run, run! I understood, I need to escape. Away from this shit, from this station, people… voices! I started to run. The people on the station was staring at me strangely, but I didn’t care about them. My feet were bringing me away. RUN! Away, down the darkest streets. Away, from staring people, buildings, trains! “KILL YOURSELF.” I kept running. “RED BLOOD WOULD BE SO BEAUTIFUL” Cold wind was beating me into the face. “SET YOURSELF FREE. YOUR UNNIDIBLE. YOURE SPOILING EVERYTHONG DIE DIE DIE.” Suddenly, I stumbled over stone and felt down. My breathing was heavy and hands were cold like ice. I looked around and found myself sitting on the ground in the gloomy park. No one was there. Voices were silent. How long will they still quiet? I was scared. Scared of something inside me. And the most terrifying thing was the fact, that you will never run away from yourself.