as long as possible. That silk dress which fits her perfectly, her messy hair because of a strong wind, and even smeared lip edge from an ice cream could not ruin my image about her. It seems that her image has been torn out of the best books which exist in this world, every world-famous artist would dream to paint her portrait.
That time I missed my chance, but fortunately I have God on my side. The next morning, picking up the mail, I saw how my beautiful stranger sorting the boxes near the house which was on sale just yesterday. Two sides were fighting in me at that moment like a bowl of scales weighing all pros and cons, however, the awareness of the whole situation came at the right time, and I decided to plan carefully her first impression of me. I’ve never had anybody like that in my life before, and I felt deeply inside that she is special. But she caught me off guard, and my plan fell apart when in a couple of hours, she knocked on my door and asked for some help. And from here on out, everything has begun. If I had an opportunity to take the time back, I would not have opened the door. But I should just take things as they come, and that's not what this is about.
The days, weeks passed, I was over head and ears in love, I was inspired only by the thought that soon I would tell her about my feelings, and my Emmy (the name of my beautiful stranger) would love me back.
I decided to introduce Emmy to my brother on one of our weekends. Fin plays a significant role in my life, we had a kind of difficult childhood. Hence, we always tried to stick together, although life separated us, and now we live in different cities. I never forget about him, and Fin was glad to have a chance to see each other. I did not tell Emmy about my brother's arrival. When he came, she was setting the table. Their acquaintance went smoothly, but my love was worried about something, and I didn't think much of it at the that time.
Eventually, I got a promotion. I got a well-paid position, and I was pleased to have much more free time. As before I often had to spend many nights at work so meetings with Emmy were very rare, but now everything is different.
I decided to make a memorable wedding proposal to my girlfriend. I bought two tickets to Paris. I thought that many girls want to hear those words in France. There was a month left before the plane and this month changed my whole life.
First of all, I went to Emmy with an offer to move in with me. Various pictures have been flickering in my mind on my way: cooking breakfasts together, spending cozy evenings together and other advantages of living together. But my dreams crashed in an instant when I heard ‘NO’. That conversation lowered me a little bit from a cloud of love to the earth.
Her refusal gave me the idea that I didn’t really pay attention to her. Emmy was the one who always deserves the best. Only then I realized how important she is to me, and how much I care about her. Every morning I wanted to watch how the sun's rays play on her face, and she hides her face under the blanket; I wanted to kiss her collarbone and her neck. I will never forget this little scar on her shoulder, and how sweet she smells. It was something crazy for me. I liked to see a smile on her face, and to hear her contagious laugh, all those things made me truly happy.
I wanted to change her answer, so for the next 2 weeks I had been giving her bouquets of flowers, inviting her to the luxury restaurants of our city. I even gave her the watch of her favorite brand engraved with my feelings ‘I asked God for angel and he sent me you’. But the more I was falling in love, the more she was pulling away. I tormented myself to madness in order to understand what I did wrong and what was the problem between us.
There's a plane leaving tonight, but Emmy hasn’t answered in the last 24 hours. I looked at the ring in a velvet box, and I didn’t understand what is going on. Then one phrase came to my mind: “You will have a girl in your life who will definitely be much better than Emmy, but, please, don’t be offended.” Seeking a way out, I called Finn. He was silent for some time, and after he said only these words: “I hoped that she’s changed. That’s why I didn’t say anything. I saw how happy you were. Bro, I didn’t want to destroy it.” The awareness of everything terrified me, I didn’t want to believe it.
When I was going to her house I was delirious with despair. Then I met a woman next to her house. She was a realtor, who put up a sign that says: “For Sale.” She said that the girl left this house yesterday. Without any hesitation I went straightly to Finn, and the puzzle has begun to gradually assemble.
I was so blinded because of this love that I didn’t notice obvious things. Every other word out of his mouth were bringing me back to reality, and destroying me from the inside. After checking my bank accounts, I was convinced that my brother was absolutely right. Indeed, how I did not understand by myself that something was wrong with her. She didn’t have any accounts on social networks, as well as Emmy didn’t introduce me to her friends or family. Her image was too perfect, and efforts to find her were not successful. If I had not been so in love, then I would have noticed something.
All that remains of her is a ring in a velvet box, tickets to Paris and a session with you Dr. Smith. And this has continued for the past 3 years. Me, hate and emptiness.
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